June 07, 2002 // 9:52 a.m. // Conclusions, conclusions

"I do hope I won't
Learn to make the same mistakes
That you would make me aware
My only fear
My only hope is letting go."

"And it's you & me in the summertime
We'll be hand down in the park
With a squeeze & a sigh & that twinkle in your eye
And all the sunshine banishes the dark"

I have two songs relating to two different girls. For one, the entire Get Up Kids album, On A Wire. The other? The Sundays, "Summertime."

I came to a conclusion at the coffee shop this morning. And then I changed my mind. I did that about a dozen times, until I began to write about selfishness in the devotion journal.

And then, "Hey Jealousy" came over the speakers.

"You know she took my heart
Well there's only one thing I couldn't start"

And I changed my mind for the final time.

I know exactly what I need to tell her when she returns sometime today. And I know exactly who I should call to make sure this is the right decision.

I'm all about feeling different today. And to think, I never thought this would happen.

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