April 30, 2002 // 11:22 p.m. // Reckoning (a guest update by bluering)

So our darling Jason has asked me to guest update...I can do that. Normally I do these thing anonymously because I'm all about the mystery of it, but I'm far too tired to do that tonight.

I have no real entry planned. Not surprising since it's been a draining day...week...month...year...lifetime. I think Jason would agree. And in light of that, I remember him saying he and I would have a theme song...I like his choice, but I think this one is just as good...

how sick of me
must you be
by now
while you're standing just outside
of what your pride will allow
always reaching into yourself
to find a new way to understand me
when i'm sure that there's no one else
in the world
who could withstand me
the first person in your life
to ever really matter
is saying the last thing that you want to hear
and you are listening hard
through the splintering shards
of your life as it shatters
and you're standing firm
and you're staying close
and you're seeing clear
i took to the stage
with my outrage
in the bad old days
when you were the make-me-mad guy
but the songs
they come out more slowly
now that i am the bad guy
and i say,
i'm sorry i'm so crazy
I am astounded by your patience
and you say,
believe it or not, baby
the joy you bring me still outweighs it
the first person in your life
to ever really matter
is saying the last thing
that you want to hear
and you are listening hard
through the splintering shards
of your life as it shatters
and you're standing firm
and you're staying close
and you're seeing clear
how sick of me
must you be
by now?

(Sick of Me--Ani diFranco)

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